Panic and Anxiety Disorder. My Life After Diagnosis

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I woke up one day and it was doomsday. It was doomsday every day after that. I feel like I was dying. I lost weight. I’ve had panic attacks. They felt as if my heart has stopped, and I couldn’t breathe. The only way I could take a breath is by smoking. I went to a doctor to find out what was wrong with me. I was diagnosed with panic and anxiety disorder. I had a severe fear of death. I was prescribed with meds, and for short moments since intake, life was normal.

The problem is my fear of going out. The wind is too noisy for me, and I get fearful of other people. I was riding a public commute when I had one of those attacks. I was lucky my sister was there with me. I cannot go out with my friends like before. I played in a band and used to go to gigs, but because I’m afraid of going out, I lost contact with most of my friends. The isolation worsened my condition.

The effects of my treatment took a long while to happen. For more than a year I stayed at home, but my meds helped me to function. I was able to get an online job, and I focused my time and energy on it. I got in touch with my friends through Facebook and Twitter. Little by little, I started going out, first just to a nearby park, then to close towns using a bike.

A few months ago, I decided to try something else. I joined a group of friends in a trip to the beach. While we were riding, I had an attack, and my friends stopped the van to help me cope. The trip back was okay. In a way, the trip was a success for my condition, because I was able to go far, and I was able to have fun again even in a place full of strangers.

I can go out without a problem nowadays, but I still need to take my meds with me. The only reason I still stay at home most of the time is because of my online job. I regularly meet with my doctor just to ensure that I’m in good shape, and my anxiety stays at a level that I can control. My story tells that there is life and hope despite having an anxiety disorder, and you can still enjoy the things that you used to do. 

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Heath Martin
12:14
Hi dean,
I have just lost my battle with all off the above after suffering a MI.
It has become an everyday event and am on Valium everyday now just to cope.
I am about to start with help.
I have read your story and it has given me some hope, THANK YOU
And well done, you should be very proud of yourself
Heath
Australia
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